Save Your Dopamine!

Maaaan Chris should me an absolutely awesome fuckin dude on YouTube named Jason Capital. He told me WHY I felt anxious and depressed, why I don’t feel motivated, and it all falls down to two things: Dopamine consumption and counting small wins (“w”s).

What does that mean for me?

It means I’ve gotta prioritize saving my dopamine and keeping small – but stacking – promises to myself.

I think it’s best if I wrote this as a list:

Dopamine & Counting Wins:

  • Instead of getting up in the morning and going for coffee, drinking a ton of water so you’re not dehydrated. You’ll feel much better and water itself actually gives you energy!
  • Brush my teeth every morning
  • Make my bed every morning
  • When I do a task, instead of feeding my brain dopamine by playing music or having “background noise”, exclusively focus on the task at hand. The feeling of accomplishment and the fact you’ve made even the tiniest progress counts as a W in your brain. Stack ’em brutha
  • Remember every small thing you accomplished that day and count ’em. Wins and losses go in stacks. If you keep winning, you’ll keep going on that win streak. However, if you keep losing, you’ll continue losing.
  • Don’t just “try” to be happy, actually DO SOMETHING. Set a goal for myself. In this case, focus hard on building my portfolio for freelance writing for 6 weeks or I want to make $500 a month in 4 months. Work on it hard. And whatever progress I make – no matter if it’s landing my first client or writing a paragraph for my website – count it as a WIN.
  • Beware of dopamine consumers like scrolling through Reddit or watching consecutive YouTube vids. They’re time consumers and eat up your mental energy like no other.
  • When negative self-talk comes into my head, just ignore it and focus on whatever goal I’m working on.
  • Don’t think, research, or determine how I’m going to accomplish my goal too much – just do.
  • Avoid shitty food, cigarettes or porn which give you a fake spike in dopamine. This insidious fiend usually kicks in when you’ve experienced too many losses. Since your brain doesn’t like the feeling of constantly losing, it searches for an alternate source to experience comfort. Consequently, this leads you down a FURTHER STEAK OF LOSSES. Since you usually feel terrible after indulging in said vice.
  • When I wake up, do not hit the snooze button. Your ass is AWAKE. Hit those feet on the floor.
  • Avoid Reddit, they are full of losers. Only a select few subs are useful like r/freelancewriting or r/digitalnomad. Shit that has a purpose.
  • Do not reach for my phone while in bed. Get the fuck up and do what you need to do (ie. make bed, brush teeth, get ready for work).

Ideas as a Digital Nomad

  • Go to university to learn Russian in Minsk (most receptive girls) while working as a digital nomad. Run social circle game.
  • Start off in Cebu for optimum balance of work & sex life.
  • Live in Cebu for the Winter (4-5 months) -> relocate to EE during the Summer/Fall
  • Before I become a digital nomad, save at least $20,000. Preferably $30,000. Optimum $40,000.
  • As a digital nomad, game 4 times a week after work.
  • Officially leave Chicago in September & remain in Stockton to try and save $40,000 before quitting my job. If not $40k, then $30k.
  • When I’m in Stockton, I will focus on studying freelance writing / digital nomad planning on my spare time. The rest of my time will be devoted to cardio + 3 days of game.
  • Do NOT remain in the Philippines for long. According to this post from Zamski, lots of dudes get entitled since they’re getting laid so much in the Phils. Once they arrive to EE, they complain it’s too hard. I absolutely do NOT want to become one of those guys.

Digital Nomad Schedule:

  • Leave September 1st, 2023 to Cebu. Stay in the Phils for 6 months (March 1st; University of Wroclaw begins 02/24 – ends 06/18).
  • Avoid Poland during the Summer (May – July; August is ok). Too much tourists aka too many dudes.
  • Countries to avoid: Western Europe, Ukraine, Russia.

Year 1 Schedule:

Schedule inspired by reports on Swoop The World.

  • The Philippines (Cebu): Beginning of October – beginning of April.
  • Romania (Bucharest): Beginning of April – Beginning of July.
    • Total time: 3 months.
  • Poland (WroclawKrakow Poznan): Beginning of July, 2023 – beginning of July, 2024.
    • Note: Base time around college semesters.
    • Note: This will act as my home base around Europe.
    • Note: Get D-Type National Visa for long stay
    • Note: Stay in each city for 4 months each
    • Note: Do not hit Krakow during the Summer. It is flooded with tourists.
    • Note: May have to hit up Wroclaw first -> Wroclaw second (for Fall semester) -> Krakow third
    • Total time: 12 months.

Alternative Year 1 Schedule:

I have created an alternative Year 1 Schedule in-case I want to jump from country to country for a few reasons.

a.) Don’t have to deal with the Visa hassle. I can stay in a Schengen country for 90 days, before bouncing to a non-Schengen country for 90 days before bouncing back.

b.) Different countries, different styles. While many PUAs love Poland, what if I don’t? What if – say – I do really well with Romanian women? Jumping from country to country and learning which one I perform well in is essential to mastering my pickup artist journey.

  • Latvia (Riga): Beginning of April – Middle of May
    • Total time: 6 weeks
    • Do college campus game
  • Lithuania (Vilnius): Middle of May – Beginning of July
    • Total time: 6 weeks
  • Romania (Bucharest): Beginning of July – Beginning of October.
    • Total time: 3 months.
  • Belarus (Minsk): Beginning of October – Beginning of December
    • Total time: 2 months
    • Once I get near the 30 day mark, take a plane to Ukraine, fly back and restart the 30 day cycle. This will total a 2 month stay.
    • If I like Belarus enough, I will sign up to the biggest university to learn Russian for a year or so.
  • Croatia (Zagreb): Beginning of October – Beginning of December
    • Total time: 2 months
    • In hindsight, learning Russian will put a massive dent on my freelance writing business and could hurt me in the long run. If I decide to not learn Russian, ditch Belarus and instead travel to Croatia for 2 months.
  • Poland (Wroclaw): Beginning of December – Beginning of March
    • Total time: 3 months

My Springfield Schedule:

  • Practice day game on Monday – Wednesday – Saturday
  • Do cardio on Friday – Saturday – Sunday
  • Learn/do digital nomad stuff on Tuesday – Thursday – Friday (after cardio) – Sunday

Freelance Writing Notes:

  • My work hours will be Monday-Friday in the morning (8AM – 12PM) and late afternoon (4PM – 8PM). Take Saturday off. Work a 40 hour shift.
  • When I’m learning freelance writing, work on it 2 hours a day of my scheduled time.
  • Starting off my freelance writing career, I will ask for 10c/word.
  • My goal is to net $500 a month in Stockton from September – February.
  • $1000 a month in Stockton from February – September, 2023
  • When I first move to Stockton starting Jan, 2022 my goal will be to learn all I can about freelance writing and setting up my portfolio website. This must be finished by May, 2022.
  • Like game – don’t focus your time researching too much, just do.

Head to Springfield on…

02/05/21… I will stay in Springfield and practice game for approximately 3 months until May. Each month, I want to save $1500, with a total of $15,000 saved up.

I will game three times a week, probably M-W-Sat.

I will focus on jogging/cardio with weights tossed in-between.

Call TRT clinic to ship my meds over to Stockton

12/11/21 – Girl Threw Herself At Me… And I Bombed Due To Lack of Entitlement

On Saturday, 12/11/21, I ventured off to Rocbar with Chris preparing for a loooong night game session leading up to 4AM. Before this, on Friday, we had a pretty successful night filled with learning lessons – and that Saturday was no different. Possibly even more so, just different aspects of game.

At first, it was an average Saturday night for us. Run a few sets -> hook girls -> but Chris and I would hit a deadlock or some external event prevented us from moving the set forward. Rinse and repeat. However, at the tail end of the night, I met this 23 year old, South African lawyer who hoped I’d game her correctly. Unfortunately, I made a critical mishap which cost me the set. I’ll be detailing the interaction in this report.

Approach #1The South African Lawyer

Synopsis: At 3-4AM, I was chilling with Chris, going over his most recent set. He made this Pakistani chick all over him, but her friends cockblocked like mad. That’s when this chick sporting a black dress, heavy makeup, I’d say a soft 7 came over and sat next to me.

This wasn’t a coincidence.

Quite a few couches were nearby and she chose to sit directly adjacent to me. It was easy pickings.

I forgot what I opened her with, but it was super casual. The first thing I noticed was her personality: She was a highly intelligent, yet negative individual. She was direct and to the point, despite her attempts at “subtlety”.

I tried running standard game: Push-pulls, qualifiers, etc. They didn’t have a strong effect. In hindsight, she was definitely a comfort girl. My value was high enough simply by being there.

We vibed most of the time… and then I asked her why she was so tired. Like, the girl looked like she reeeeally didn’t want to be in the club.

Her response: “I don’t want to send the wrong vibes, but I’m tired and want to go home. I’d rather save that energy for sex.”

You DON’T just say that without conveying some overt ass intentions.

In all honesty, I was awestruck. My brain was like, “uhhhh…”

And since I didn’t know how to handle the situ, my brain reverted to giving a thirsty response lol. It was terrible game and I felt truly awful for going the chode route. This was def a learning lesson I’ll avoid in the future.

“So, you’re a lawyer, right? That means you probably have a sweet ass apartment.”

“Yeah, it’s pretty cool. Some of the shit doesn’t work, but I like it.”

“Shit girl, I’unno I’m a poor boy and I’m kinda curious to see how it is.”

Aaaand she said she had a boyfriend haha. We chatted for a bit longer, but at the end, I snagged her number. It was a flake. Meh.

IMPORTANT: After speaking to u/fastlife15, he said “Sometimes girls are just down and all you need to do is chill, not be too thirsty, and lead.” That’s it. Be a cool, fun guy.

What I Did Right:

– Pushed The Set As Far As Possible: While I fucked up, at least I didn’t freeze & eject or simply ignored what my target. This served as a massive learning lesson to truly chill, not be too thirsty, and lead as u/fastlife15 put it.

Sticking Points:

– Handling Direct Girls: I definitely wasn’t entitled as I should have been. If I was, I would have inherently knew I was a high value dude and this was common to me. Next time, I’ll…

What I’ll Do Next Time:

– Chill -> Don’t Be Thirsty -> Lead: … do this. Gotta remember if a girl is overtly interested in me, to simply chill, don’t be thirsty, and lead.

Comments: N/A.

How To Get My Game Back – Definitive Edition

IMPORTANT: Follow this guide like God himself.

After getting back into pickup for approximately 5 weeks now (11/02/21), I’ve been trying to get my “mojo” back, after weeks of trying. I couldn’t hook, my opens – but most importantly, vibe sucked. I’ve tried everything under the sun: A rigid vitamin regimen, TRT (it does kick ass tho), etc.

… But this article from opened my eyes.

It all made sense. When I was in set, my verbals are hella solid. I knew how to qualify, push-pull, provide comfort if necessary, etc. The problem wasn’t my mid or end game, it was the initial approach – or the beginning game.

My fundamentals took a major hit.

Here’s a quote I found on getting back into pickup after a long hiatus:

I don’t know why, but when you hit low momentum, the first things that take a hit are your fundamentals and your opening and hook game.

Your opening and hook game will usually take a hit because it is the phase of the pickup and seduction process that is most reliant on state and vibe. 

This is what I should exclusively focus on. My inherent pickup skills I’ve learned after a full year infield will return automatically; hell, it already has!

So, what does that mean practically?

It means I must tear down my game and rebuild everything from scratch, with an acute focus on fundamentals and opening and hooking. According to the girlschase author, I must make a simple fundamental game plan and stick to it.

What I’m Working On Now (spend 3-4 weeks on this):

FOCUS ON THIS: When infield, after my open do NOT say, “You’re not from here, are you?” or something along the lines. They 100% DO NOT GO ANYWHERE. Go with an “extended opener” instead. For example, “… You look like you’re about to chill at an indy cafe lounge with your pumpkin spice latte. No sugar of course.”

After that, chill out and your ingrained game should take over from here.

Secondary Objective: When I’m running day game, go for 10 approaches or 1 instadate per session.

Prior Goals I Was Working On:


11/30/21 – Keep Calm & Game On

On 11/30/21, Tuesday, I ventured off to Evanston to hit up Northwestern University. I felt like my emotions + inner game raged up a storm after being locked up for months on in. I felt invincible, like I could take on the world. If I had to guess what caused me to feel so upbeat today, it’s my TRT regimen accompanied by a new morning supplement schedule consisting of Vitamin B Complex Pill, 5000 iu vitamin D, 400mg liquid ionic magnesium and my multivitamins.

It was recommended to me on Reddit as an anti-depressive regimen and general mood booster.

And damn, did it show lol

All in all, I my attitude and outlook was incredibly positive, my game improved & suffered in a few ways. I’ll log my results on the two approaches I managed to net over at Northwestern and utilize it as essential data for next time.

I’m hoping this is what I’ve been looking for so I can continue my pickup journey once again.

Approach #1The NoCal Redhead

Synopsis: After getting off the Purple Line, I met this hard HB 6 pale redhead girl. She was sweet, neutral leaning receptive, but waiting for an Uber. I figured I’d test to see if I could hook her in 5 minutes or less, so I ran game on my girl. Thankfully, I was projecting good vibes and she definitely felt it. However, I didn’t qualify my target enough – or at all, really.

I knew I fucked up because I didn’t give her enough room to ask personal questions (ie. invest), but rather, played as the fun, cool guy who is there for entertainment. No qualifying, no comfort. All high energy and in hindsight, I suppose I was the one too invested!

Definitely not good.

Even though I number closed the set, she’s been texting me back very slowly.

I wasn’t surprised.

What I Did Right:

Hooking: I was able to accurately assess and say “the right words” when required. For example, if my target was getting bored and wasn’t invested enough, I’d do a push-pull or cold read. She’d get hooked again, responding to what I asked or cold read about her, before checking out her phone. I don’t blame her, though, considering she was heading to the vet to pick up her sick bird.

Accurate Cold Reads: It’s crazy when you’re present in the moment, how you’re able to subconsciously read your target and guess correct life facts about them. I was right 90% of the time, which built up my value. I knew it wasn’t enough to ditch her Uber, but I felt good enough considering my inner game was pretty crap for the past month or so.

It’s good I’m getting my old abilities back.

Sticking Points:

Too High Energy: I was just so fucking on. Like, too much. I barely gave my target enough time to respond and I yapped my face off. I’m going to forgive myself though, considering that she was about to hit up an Uber in 5 minutes anyway. So I had to make the set count.

Overgaming: This has been my sticking point since the dawn of time lol. It’s one of those sticking points where you simply get tired of having to invest sooooo much into the convo, that you simply don’t give a shit anymore. Once that occurs, you do less in the set and titrate how much game & effort you put forth. Consequently, doing less = girl is more invested.

No Investment: … On her part, that is. She merely responded -> continued talking after my cold read, observation, or question. Yes, it was fun, flirty talk, but nothing substantial. Remember: You can only build your value up so high. Make her invest. It’s a far more powerful tool.

What I’ll Do Next Time:

Keep Calm: Be present, calm, actively listening, and speak slowly, with purpose, so I can decide if my target requires more value, more comfort, or to qualify/invest more. That is when I’m at my best.

If I Can’t Move the Set, Hook -> Qualify -> Close: I knew I couldn’t instadate my girl. Not unless I had JP or Todd level skills haha. So the best I could have done is project value and have her qualify/invest a shitload within the short timeframe I had to work with. Next time, focus waaaaay more on qualifying > value. Build up just enough value you to cash it in via qualifications.

Comments: Good on me for hitting up a girl waiting for an Uber. It’s a challenge I didn’t back down to.

Approach #2 The San Francisco Girl

Synopsis: At the campus proper, I met this 18 year old tall blonde from San Francisco at a crosswalk. It was dark, but I felt like I could make it work. After the open, she was originally going to leave after I complimented her outfit. It was direct friendly, enough to make her stop momentarily – but not enough to keep her there. So I kept throwing out push-pulls, witty banter, and had her qualify a ton.

It was a minute or two before she was truly hooked.

In this situ, I def did more shit right than wrong. I had my target qualifying the living hell out of her self and at certain intervals within the interaction, she began chasing.

However, I felt waaaay too high energy, like an entertainer, without much – if any – comfort.

I caught myself doing this mid-way in the set, therefore, I started slowing down my pace. She caught notice of this and the set began sliding in a downward arc. I believe Todd V states to keep your energy levels low or mid level. Because you can’t keep everything high all the time. And once you start lowering the energy levels, as does her attention span.

At the end, I snagged her number before trying to make plans with her. She’s been responding back and I’ve been consulting the boys as how to handle her.

What I Did Right:

Flirty, Witter Banter: Despite the fact I probably overgamed my girl + had too high energy over an extended period of time, my verbals were fuckin’ solid. Like, when she threw shit tests at me, I inherently knew to agree & exaggerate and I did that with flying colors. She gawked at me the entire time like, “Who the fuck is this guy and why am I so attracted to him?” Good shit.

Qualifiers: My girl qualified the hell outta herself. Yes, I qualified after I gauged her attraction level, but for the most part, she just kept investing over & over again into me. Even though my comfort game was pretty shit in set, I think the fact she expounded a decent amount of time and energy into me made the number solid.

Catching Myself: I knew I was playing the entertainer instead of a fun, sexy guy who is attracted to her. This is due to my full year of practice as a pickup artist so I’m able to pinpoint where I’m at in the interaction and can tell if I’ve hit a dead end of not. While I did catch myself, I should eject first before the girl if I can’t move the set any further.

Sticking Points:

Felt Like An Entertainer: I’ll be honest, the word I’m looking for is “tryhard”. It belongs to the same category as overgaming. It’s a very intermediate level sticking point, but which rectifies itself with sheer time & effort infield. In this situ, I def felt like an entertainer with Charlotte (the girl). She was drawn in primarily due to the amount of times she qualified herself.

No Comfort: In set, I only attained surface level info that any rando could get from a casual conversation. I didn’t go deep into who she was as a person, her feelings/emotions, nor anything beyond “flirt, fun high energy guy”. If you want to make her feel like you’re not just fucking with her / want sex, be sure to establish comfort as well as value!

Speaking Too Fast: I wouldn’t say I was exactly nervous in set; moreso excited. But even so – that’s bad game. It’s better if you’re slow, methodical, an active listener, while pinging her hindbrain she’s speaking to an alpha who wants to fuck her. When you speak too fast, you’re subconsciously telling her she’s the higher value one since you’re the one REACTING to her.

What I’ll Do Next Time:

Speak Slower + Comfort: Look back at Mikaela (Czech Bartender), I distinctly recall opening + gaming her in a slow, calculated manner. Yes, I was happy shit was going according to plan, but better yet, I was planning my next steps and how to move things forward. If I need a recent example to replicate, my set with Mikaela should be my guide.

Comments: All in all, a (mostly) good set that worked on an 18 year old.

My Supplement/Medication Schedule

I am on a medication schedule which I believe will best benefit my mental health / inner game as well as assist me throughout the Winter. Since they are quite numerous, I’ve listed them out here:

PS: My morning regimen is based on an anti-depression post I found on Reddit here. Let’s see how it works.


– Vitamin B Complex Pill
– 5000 iu vitamin D
– 400mg liquid ionic magnesium in 00 capsule
– Multivitamins


– Krill Oil (2 capsules)
– L-Theanine w/ Caffeine


– Ashwagandha (2 pills)
– Lisinopril 10mg

Tuesday & Wednesday:

– HCG injection (@ 12pm)


– Testosterone Cypionate 200mg injection (@ 12pm)

Notes Regarding MENT


Thinking about using MENT with my TRT. Here’s a few posts I found from a guy who uses MENT exclusively for the mental benefits:

My personal experience. I have run masteron up to 500mg along side test. Last use was 400/300/300 Test/NPP/Mast. I have had blood work done while on it and it did not lower my estrogen levels. It def mitigates the symptoms of high e2 but didnt lower my e2. It raised my ldl about 20-30% from a baseline and lowered my hdl significantly. It def kept me dry, elevated my aggression in and out of the gym, and made me horny af.

I have never tried any GHR peptides.

One feel good compound I can say really boosted mood, sex drive, motivation, etc.. is MENT. Running it low dose 5-10mg a day along side trt has been super beneficial and doesnt skew my bloodwork by any measure difference at those doses.

Im not a bb by any means either, just a 40 yo trying to stay in shape not get huge. Ment, tren, nandrolone are all 19-nors. I have only run tren ace once @ 300 wk. Mental sides, night sweats, appetite issues, etc turned me off of it. I have run NPP at moderate doses. Nandrolone after 8 weeks or so makes me apathetic and depressed, I have tried it a few times with the same result. Gotten decent gains. Stayed dry and kept my sex drive high running mast w/ the npp. I have run MENT ace up to 25mg a day w/ 120mg test (wkly). I have run it twice for 12 weeks and then cruised on 120mg test w/ 5mg ment in between. To me ment has all of the benefits of tren, nandro, and test with little to none of the sides. I gained way more size/fullness, vascularity on ment and test than any other compounds I have ran. Mind you my previous blasts used for comparison would be small to an experienced gym rat.

I dont bloat from it. I have no need for and ai on it. Up to 25mg a day anyways, thats the max I took it. Appetite is crazy, killer sex drive, killer gains, great recovery, feel great mentally, a calm focus. I can grind through workouts on it like a madman. Its worth researching for a possible run.

I mean you get used to feeling a certain way, so after a while thats your new “norm”. I would say cycling it would help you hold on to that mental feel. For the 12 week runs at higher does I stayed driven the entire time, workouts were awesome, sex life on point, etc. cruising on it I just feel more upbeat, easier to engage, more focused. That stuff seems to shave stuck around if I think about it.

I inject all compounds im using 28g 1/2″ insulin pins. I pin the ment ace daily, shallow im. When I first started it, i started low and was titrating up; I actually injected twice a day. I was trying to be careful with it and monitor for sides like gyno and bp issues. But they never came. R/steroids has a really good compound wiki that explains ment in great detail. That really swayed me into trying it after a few months of researching it.

I Am Going On TRT

Whelp, ladies and gents. I’m going on testosterone replacement therapy.

I made a post a few days ago on Reddit asking about TRT and social confidence with girls.

Decided to go to a TRT clinic to check my testosterone levels yesterday… and I got results back today. My fucking testosterone is 113 ng/dl with almost ZERO estrogen. My doc said instead of the .75ml they instruct patients, I need the full ml for the test cyp they’re shipping me tomorrow… and not to take the AI they provided me. Not yet anyway.

Damn, didn’t expect I’d have such low test as a 29 year old male.

Looking back, I believe it stems from a traumatic event which occurred May of this year. My best friend died of cardiomyopathy. It hit me how fast life can flash before your eyes – it can happen to you, your family, your neighbor across the street today, tomorrow, or hell, 50 years from now – and you can’t control it.

Once I realized that, I started developing panic attacks, obsessive compulsive thinking, mild depression, and my sex drive took a fuckin dive.

I still work out at the gym, hit up girls in the club, and whatnot. But not due to motivation (never relied on it anyway, it’s so fleeting), but moreso it’s routine for me


I can use this to my advantage game-wise.

Apparently, testosterone sharply rises 24 hours after intramuscular injection, before slowly declining within the span of a week. At day 7, I should be at 600 ng/dl according to More Plates, More Dates.

What does this mean exactly?

My most game heavy days are Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Three full days hitting both day and night game venues fuckin’ HARD.

If I inject 12PM Thursday afternoon, my testosterone levels will have spiked to near supraphysiological ranges by Friday. I will project FAR stronger sexual intent, more drive, focus to bang my girl, etc at the clubs.

Therefore, I’ve made an injection schedule fitting a pickup artist.

Testosterone Cypionate HCG
200mg (Thursday @ 12PM) .25ml (Tuesday & Wednesday @ 12PM)
  • Take Ashwagandha 2 pills/AM
  • Multivitamin & Probiotic gummies/AM
  • Take Krill Oil at lunch time
  • Continue taking lisinopril at night
  • Once 12/23/21 hits, include weight loss cycle

Balance, Centeredness is the Key to True Presence

… And awareness is not enough.

On Tuesday, 11/16/21, I ventured off to Downtown Chicago once again with the intent of practicing projecting sexual intent + being present in the moment. Like most game sessions, things didn’t go as planned. I was aware, yes, of my cold fingers in the winter Chicago wind, of the sounds of the train, the people around me, but I wasn’t centered.

As James Marshall states, “Step one is awareness. Step two is being centered, balanced despite adversity. If you only do step one, you aren’t truly aware.”

When I was day gaming today, I wasn’t pleased with my situation – the cold wind, the darkness of Chicago winter, being bored of hitting up Mag Mile every game session – and consequently, I wasn’t centered.

IMPORTANT: Once again, I was aware. But not centered.

Even now as I type this, my cat is yowling at me to be let outside. Will I stop what I’m doing and tend to him? No, that would be me breaking concentration – ie. centeredness – and letting the ego wrestle back control.

Same thing happened at my day game session.

I got blown out a few times since my mind was wandering a bit. The cold Chicago wind, being too dark at 5pm, the fact I’ve been taking trains like half my day game session to get a new experience, etc.

I let my desires toss me to and fro and not FOCUS on the true objective of the day: Approach girls. Instadate them.

IMPORTANT: If I get rejected, blown out, whatever accept the situation, don’t let it affect the day, all in all, be balanced, centered and continue on.

Why am I writing this blog post?

Because at the end of my day game session, once I accepted that I’m out here, approaching girls, and not let my prior blow-outs get to me, I instantly gained more presence.

I met this cute Latina who was drawn to my sexual projection. I was focused, she knew I wanted her. This was after I accepted the situ and surrendered to day game. While my verbals weren’t on point completely, I was able to intrigue + hook the set due to pure presence and sexual intent.

This is exactly what James Marshall means by centeredness.

It’s the HARD PART of meditation.

Awareness is relatively easy in comparison.