Treat All Pain As Pure Sensation, But The Mind Is A Tricky Bastard

My present moment awareness meditation is growing stronger, but I must remember it is an inner game skillset. And just like game, you regress to a prior level before hitting a new – and improved – baseline.

On 11/11/21, Thursday, I meditated once again in the shower. I was able to easily transmute itches, pain, etc into pure, objective sensation. However, my ego sought to desperately regain control by operating on the subconscious level.

You see, I didn’t actively think about anything during my meditation; all conscious thoughts were dismissed as my monkey mind playing games trying to escape the boredom of focusing on one single thing at a time.

So, it stopped.

Instead, it started by playing a piano tune I heard a few hours ago in the back of my head.

It wasn’t in the forefront, but rather, a background noise that refused to stop.

I won’t fight it.

The only thing I can do is realize what it is – a distraction of the ego trying to wrestle back control via the back door – and IMPORTANT refocus 100% on whatever sensation I’m feeling.

This is my new goal.

Complete and total awareness

100%

No fucks given

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